Like the setting sun’s sky, the lingering memories come in
taints of burnt oranges and forgotten yellows. I try to hold on to the feeling
of missing and it just slightly, teasingly brushes on my face tangling my hair
and heart.
By the windowsill, I sit still playing the melodies of yesterday while
wondering about tomorrow, the same old dress with the same reds. We are well
versed with things like the sound of goodbyes and some others we always prefer
to hide; the baggage along the goodbye. Sometimes it’s not a diamond ring
you’re looking for but just maybe a conversation until the sun rises and a love
that lasts. I found so much yet I was too little to hold on. Amidst the misty,
blue and blurry world I kept rushing to pick and pluck and have my pockets full
of trivial rather than significant and faithful relations. I kept running,
gasping for faith, for truth and there I found none. Everyday a part of me
eroded in search of something I never knew about. Then one fine day, when the
sky had turned dark and I saw no way out, just as when I settled for grey came
along a streak of red. Bright and looked so right! Suddenly I found a place to
pour myself in a way I needed to, a way I never before got a chance to.
Everyday before this was heavy, my pockets pulled my down, tore me apart and I sank slowly.
Though maybe it’s true, some prayers don’t go unheard; the brokenness shows a way sometimes to a place which is real, strengthening and loving. It’s lit with baubles of happiness, dim but illuminating. Happy places don’t come with balloons and confetti but they gradually soak themselves in your skin and your everyday. Every day isn’t war anymore.
Everyday before this was heavy, my pockets pulled my down, tore me apart and I sank slowly.
Though maybe it’s true, some prayers don’t go unheard; the brokenness shows a way sometimes to a place which is real, strengthening and loving. It’s lit with baubles of happiness, dim but illuminating. Happy places don’t come with balloons and confetti but they gradually soak themselves in your skin and your everyday. Every day isn’t war anymore.
Sometimes what was ours remains in old photographs and
letters, and after some time we find parts of us in someone new with no
regrets.
Don’t just give up yet.
Don’t just give up yet.